Unbelievable Sadness

I am looking over my life and I am thankful for ALLLLLLLLLL the wonderful blessings. Still I am saddened right now.
My sixteen years old cousin died of cancer a few days ago. I am thinking I should be able to handle all this a bit better because he’s been sick and somewhere in the back of my mind I knew. 
However It hurts like a mother every time  I think about it. 

How does one get over the questions going through the mind. 

Why a sixteen year old?

Why the one who seems to be a light in the dark?

Why, why, why???

I have no idea but I am trying to figure it out. 

Remember to appreciate the people you love because before you know it death which is a part of life takes them away.